its never easy to come this far... everything seems so natural now... another year coming up, been asking myself if im living for the better... why did i strive to build bonds between people? yet leechers & betrayers come in... why did i ask so much about $? yet I'm not even making the best outta every cent...why didnt i juz relax n let time pass? or rather juz end my life, everything could haf reached a stop... be in heaven or in hell ; would it be another new life, total strangers to me?
i always feel there is reasons for me to do things that im doing now... like wat GOD wants me to be wat i am now... but wat really lies behind the definition of everything?
" i know time wun go back to where it was, so i try to make up for the lost time, to all my love ones ; to those whom haf been visible around me yet unnoticeable... " i wanna make people around me happy & if u think u already were, i wanna make U happier... coz i know i really haf not much time left & i hope occasionally, i will be thought of, tats all im asking...
well, but sometimes in life we dun even deserve a second chance... a mistake made once will be engraved deeply & no matter how hard u tried, it will never be erased... i guess i should be categorise here ba... coz no one gonna believe & trust me anymore ; like a leopard never change its spots, for i think i haf told the biggest n baddest lie in this world...
anyway, im looking forward to year'09, hope its another motivating year for me...
May the LORD answer you when you are in distress ; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion.
May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.
May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
(Psalm 20) this is wat i feel the GOD is telling me right now...
-04.02.08
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