Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Upon Myself

yes, i didn't treasure my life after what had happened in my family... im a total letdown... i'm sorry that i troubled all my friends to bring me around for SGH appointments & treatments... & even the slightest things to buy food for me, etc... can't even wash my own plates or pour my own drinks... im a burden to everyone... i can't even have a proper mahjong session with my uncles & aunties... i made everyone worried, i made everyone sad...
yes i cried... in the darkest night in my room... when i was alone in the bathroom... well well... what can be helped?? i can only depend on myself... i have to be independent... how life will be if things can turn back?? but i know time machine don't appear in realistic life... there shouldnt be any regrets, i brought things upon myself... i deserved what's happening... so who will be around to share what im going through?? ANS : NO ONE...
im glad family & relatives still stand by me, thanks to all my friends and brothers who motivated my life even by just a simple sms, call or even just a friendster testi... for awhile, i just hope u guys be around till i get independent... please be patient with me for another while, i will do what i ought to do... thanks alots!~~

-12.09.06

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