ALONE

23/02/06, alex's POP day...
made myself wif keith to his camp at changi, as usual was late again ; i lost my way... the whole thing was fun & i'm glad i din miss his performance... at that point of time.. i really feel he had grown up... he is no longer the little alex i once used to beat up n scream at anymore...
outta sudden, i feel lonely... i juz feel that i haf no one to share my joys wif... i took out my fone n search through all my fone list... & surprisingly, there is really not a single person i can call to share my happiness... i felt pathetic for awhile, i duno who & how to talk to anyone about my feels... i went off alone in the corner to take a deep breathe, i wanna stop wat im thinking at the moment of time...
for some reason, i feel that i haf so many things to tell ; so many things to release... so my mind will be at ease... i wanted so much to talk to her... so many things to tell... but i refrained myself again... i felt i needed a shoulder to lean on ; i hugged keith for 2secs... yes, its alittle gay, i juz cant control... i thought my tears will start rolling down again... i really breathe hard that time ; i dun wan pple around me to laugh at mi ; i dun wan them to worry about me... somehow or rather, i felt im useless, i felt im so ALONE in this world... can someone hear mi out?? i will be grateful... thank...

-20.02.06