Lost

7.11am, 1-1-2006, 1st day of a new year...
on this special morning... i feel lost for awhile... i feel i needed someone who understand me to talk to...
i and her chatted for like a couple of hours... quiet atmosphere, in a half-drunken mode, we tok abt everythin tat goes wrong in our relationship... thinking back, i was juz like an ordinary guy, who is in search of the " lost love... " was totally devastated & disappointed in myself... i duno how im gonna face her again... i din realised things got into such a bad situation.. my care & concern ; my possession causes her depressions... i knew things arent gonna be the same anymore... & i guess its really time for me to let go slowly... truthfully, i envy " true love " ; i envy all those in love... however things are gonna turn out to be... im not sad, in fact im proud of myself... i've done my part ; i've tried my best ; im proud of myself... i haf given my 100%...
" 2 days, 2 phrases, im totally shattered... " Happy New Year!!

-31.12.05