revival

was back from another medical appointment @ sgh ; sad to say, i needed another operation from the bad sore on my back... doc say i might need another 3 weeks in the hospital... *sigh* HEY, thanks to yongteck & kieth for the trouble to accompany me there... xie2
pretty restless but still in a pretty good mood though i din sleep well trying to solve the " unbelievable " SODUKU wif xiaoyun... anyway, xiaoyun is my maple buddy, be honoured u are in my blog, =D
its has been some times since i last saw so many people in my house coz i was always sleeping ; trying to hide myself in the total darkness when i closed my eyes... was happy to see " ah pootz" today, she is growing, cuter as day goes by...
wanting to catch a wink earlier but the dota game is so addictive...
wasnt really too irritated by my sis coz she kept asking me to eat this & that, popping me with questions & questions... till she showed mi a video clip she took of my mum back @ home... my mood suddenly swinged & i threw her outta the room... memories flow in... i was sad & yes i cried, i miss my mum very much~ on the other hand, i being like that, i duno how to face her everytime she visited me... im a total failure... i guessed this life, i let the whole world down again... when can i be back home again??
i just cant stop my fucking tears till now...
horoscope says " Sagittarius loves freedom ", indeed its true, but i can only be as free as a bird at home...

-09.02.07