d & f

" destiny lies in the hand of the beholder... "
in fact we all know it ; we dont hold destiny in our very own hands... why do people born with silver spoon in their mouth? and tell me, why do people slogged the whole life yet couldn't accomplish a simplest wish? and why do a young girl who loves to read yet was born with her eyes blind... some said everything is destined to be ; its all fated...

destiny ; fate ; wat is that?

i guess everyone in this world had tried to become someone u wanna be ; maybe someone influential, or maybe just someone simple...
a friend of mine once told me : if im arent someone simple, i had to be " somebody. "
but till this everyday i been trying, non stop trying, i dont even seems to get close to who i feel i was gonna be... does luck plays a part here then? or wasnt i not determined enough... but how many of us actually believe in fate? how many of us actually feels we got our own destiny to accomplish?!?
arent u surprised why fortune teller can read through us? well, i dun understand this either...

i feel i been through quite alot ; i tumbled but i got up ; i fell but i still climbed... i duno how many times all these have to be going around me... i always tell myself never to give up, but all this faith & determination all are going to waste, i guessed i couldn't accomplish my own destiny and sooner or later when " darkness " falls upon me once again, i REally reALLY have to let everything go... hereby sad to say, i've no one to even share all my unfulfilled wishes... im shag for this very moment, very tired, but not wanting to close my eyes. hope i wished i can change my DESTINY...