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its like a same old nite... went td, have fun, bat kut teh, then come back... but saw this friendly guy, duno driving wat convertible car in white, plate nos 5255; he said i got good friends... well, maybe he saw ben n wayne helping me up onto the cab; pretty nice guy for the first impression, but im not gay la, CB...~~ have a envious feel the whole nite i duno why ; when i see alex has new chick ; minjie's gf ; wayne's new car ; ben looking forward to his coming birthday... all wat i saw n feel with my own, i hold back my life & think hard for awhile... its like i dun have anything to look forward to anymore... i've been controlling my drinking, i dun wanna get drunk cos i wanna feel the difference; the reality & the so-called tipsy world... caught breathless sometimes; blood vessels been blocked; legs tied to the ground permanently... im tired i guess, very very tired, losing control of what i have in mind; losing grips of what i have in front of my eyes ; yes, totally shaken out by some undescribleable aura & i know i cant hold on much longer... i know it gonna happen; it will happen soon...
yawn~~ using my msn in offline mode ; i dun care for whatever reasons; stop tailgating; an E brake will crush everything, i mean it & guaranteed it...