not loving u anymore...

u think im lost ; drunk ? omg, i came home, feelin so hungry but thought " someone " gonna cook for me... wah heng la, i got chicken rice left, wahahahha.... ah ben mao leaw na ; & my own flesh & blood brother, have HIS some somebody to take care of ; i sibei disappointed la ; but i cant help it la, LAN LAN siao siao la, knn... i always feel zEnny arent dumb lo... well... ; how abt zEnny is clever?!!? wahahhahah... WAH, today damn fuckin seh, but i surely noe wat im doin ; and im surely noe wat im typing... burberry then to sabai sabai, omg... my cousin needa a GooD drink, so well ; im here, to be with him...ROARrrrr!!

ooi, HO SAY BO, happi scrooning la... haf fun ; good luck, wahahhaha.... .i.@_@.i...

omg

its never like this... i been sad ; i been framed... i never wanted this to happen ; but i knew " zenny the handicapped " has created this... im sad but i know ; its all my doings'... sry to the 1 i caused hurt; sorry to the 1 caused misunderstandings....

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its like a same old nite... went td, have fun, bat kut teh, then come back... but saw this friendly guy, duno driving wat convertible car in white, plate nos 5255; he said i got good friends... well, maybe he saw ben n wayne helping me up onto the cab; pretty nice guy for the first impression, but im not gay la, CB...~~ have a envious feel the whole nite i duno why ; when i see alex has new chick ; minjie's gf ; wayne's new car ; ben looking forward to his coming birthday... all wat i saw n feel with my own, i hold back my life & think hard for awhile... its like i dun have anything to look forward to anymore... i've been controlling my drinking, i dun wanna get drunk cos i wanna feel the difference; the reality & the so-called tipsy world... caught breathless sometimes; blood vessels been blocked; legs tied to the ground permanently... im tired i guess, very very tired, losing control of what i have in mind; losing grips of what i have in front of my eyes ; yes, totally shaken out by some undescribleable aura & i know i cant hold on much longer... i know it gonna happen; it will happen soon...
yawn~~ using my msn in offline mode ; i dun care for whatever reasons; stop tailgating; an E brake will crush everything, i mean it & guaranteed it...

dream

- a bad dream
- of her & her sis
- kiat n weimao
- moody, sad, tiring nite
- at a sandy playground
- a bicycle & a unstylist bag
- nokia hp 8250
- unknown person name " kaishao "
- almost 5am & i needa go
- jog to the bus-stop
- boarded an annoymous nos bus
- crazy driver
- sped all the way
- no traffic can hold him back
- someone asked why he need to speed
- rushin for time
- u dun need a tix or transitlink card to get on it
- a single trip with no return
- to a place we never been
- to a place we will never know
- he say it was dark & scary
- he say we are not gonna love it there
- he knew we are afraid
- but he never want to stop
- it was a journey to Hell
- Kira has arrived
- i soon be gone too~~

sabai2

OMFG~~ sabai sabai again..
forced to sabai again... well well.. nice ambience, nice songs, spacious enough for mi... and of cos nice chicks, haha... but yucks, Martell & Martell, sucky ; simply dun like brandy, boooo~~~ hiak hiak hiak, tonite unusual, cos kuku ray is drunk.. so dead ; puke n puke, lmao... at first we tot he lost his car key, but knn its with the valet, haha... all of them haf to take turns to look after him ; directing him where the plastic bag to puke... we took some time to really get him in the car... and while doing so, there was a fight juz opposite us... woo hooo, its sabai's trend; a fight to end the nite... then off we go to 226 market for breakfast, tonite's driver is benny, hohoho... kuku ray din want to follow, so we all locked him in his own car, =.=
" thx to kind benny for driving him all the way back to sembawang then took a cab back... "
*Looking Forward To The Next Drunk Cat*