sorry

good times are gone & now it has been a struggle for me ; for a long time... was like everyday, things kept happening & happening ; totally losing control in whatever im trying to do... cant find my objective in life ; not even in games... has become the unusal me... is everything meant to be an end? am i supposed to keep trying? i know & i finally realised that everyone around me is striving real hard but im just degrading my life further... constantly asking myself wat am i asking for after so much had happened... nothing seems to be going well over the months... for i may look calm but wat had happened to me, it seems like im dragging everyone around me down... i need to apologise for all these shyt i got them into... im so tired, so shag but cant get a wink ; minds totally cannot shut down... eyes with tears but u wont see them ; heart full of sadness but u wont feel it ; smiles are broad but arent genuine... living in a total darkness...