thanks for being there...

i believed everyone asked themselves wat they gonna be when they grow up... i recalled this particular question when i was idling just now but now i feel im a good for nothing...
when u are in your teens u got some u feel u called real " brothers... ", no blood link though... some hokkien pai kia called them " hia ti kia " ; closer than " brothers " , they called them " kek bai " or " hua tia... " and the person they respect they called them " tao eh ; tua eh " and the older version of pai kia we called them " lao eh "and of cos... if u got girlfriend, brothers dun call yr girlfriend just gf ; they called her " siao eh " when u are in camp, the person who give u off is yr " Sir " and normally the ones who fucked u most are yr " sergeants... " u nag and nag and complained around and the one who really listen to you could just be the one whom we called " buddy... " the black sheeps among us we named them " sabo kia... " soldiers who keep reporting sick ; they are the " chao keng kia " u met backstabber, right? they are the " lanjiao kia " when u abandoned your " brothers " or " buddy " and go out with girls, rightfully u will be named " chee hong kia " well, any point of this time, when u met into any big troubles, no one will be around for you ; u can only be the " solo kia... "
till today i only came to know, u only meet your real friend when u gets close to age of 30, maybe a couple ; one or two ; or maybe u meet none... and this type of friend we got no special terms for them, we barely just name them " friend..."
u might not be my real blood brother, u might not be the best friend... but thanks for being a bad nice friend...

GA = Guardian Angel

its getting bored for my life ; nothing at all makes me feel like i need to go on...
i have been thinking and i still think all the things happening to be had to happen to me ; an invisible force pushing me on ; like an Angel by my side... but well, anyway so far, i feel im still blessed...
u guys have Guardian Angel? well, maybe u feel u dun but certainly there is someone watching over u ; someone unknown...
now im feeling my life is picking up and i hope, i truly hope nothing is gonna hinder wat im planning to do... not the proper way though but the only way... nobody thinks about u, nobody gonna care wats gonna happen to u...
God makes wonderful things like human but He makes them too selfish, too self-centred, too protective over themselves... and this is wat leads to the day when GOD wanted to destroy something he loved so much with his own hands... perhaps he set another date, 21st MAy 2011 wasn't the best date for all of us to perish...
my friend ever ask me, " do u know why we got pairs of eyes, ears, hands, legs, even nostrils we got two but why is it we have only 1 heart? " my answer for this is " cos our own heart is purely kept for our ownself only, no one in the world matters to u more than u yourself... "
T E R R I B L E
well well well... everyone stays selfish. ok? so the date of judgement will come sooner... good men die young ; stay put there and stay evil...
" Time to go "