Forever

getting sick of hearing anyone telling u, " i will love you forever... " well, well, wats the exact definations of it? does holding tight to my hand when i needed u badly means forever? or no matter which land we would be, the unchanged love means forever? & when Rose released her shivering hand off Jack after the Titanic sank, did she mean forever? so how much did u all know about this 7 letters word F O R E V E R? & if there is true meanings & doings in this word, why are there unfaithfulness, betrayals?




To Be Continued...

coughhh >>> death

many people have told me that they don't think they could "stand to live" if they needed a wheelchair like me...
in my early twenties, sharing experiences with disabled friends, i finally learned how to recognize & constructively resist discrimination. the connection and insights we shared gave me a new lens through which to view my life. most importantly, i learned to look more clearly at the ways i had internalized the stigma & shame of disability, & began the lifelong struggle to undo the damage done by growing up in isolation from a true sense of community and mutual respect...
but today i have a different mindset ; i cant sleep ; coughing terribly bad for 3 weeks already ; with flu & a left side lung pain... wats more a toothache... its like a total disability of the use of my left upper limbs ; sharp pain every moment i cough, damn sucky... it affected my sleep, whenever i start to lie down, i cough non-stop... have taken all the medicine, applied all the ointment, no effect at all... & guess sitting down was the only way to cough lesser...
all these sucky thingy did not stop me on a TD nite though, with dajie & grace, i'm happy to see u people again... i recalled the times we used to club at devils, those drunkard days... was like back to the same old days ; fun & memorable... 2 years+ have passed, things was like yesterday... i missed those unforgettable DAYS...
i think i'm dying soon ; deathgod is on the way... u all like kali kuey? be on the dot then... see ya next life all my beloved frenz...

U

i think u are terrific ; definitely a trustworthy & responsible frenz for anyone to rely on... a shoulder for anyone who needs it to lay on ; a good listener, a good advisor... u are charming in your own speciaL ways, u looks like a superstar sometimes, well... some people says u are cute... u are most handsome looking when u starts to get serious... delicated smile & attractive stares, u look great ; almost to perfection... u are smart ; i can say smarter than anyone ; clever, intelligent... u are full of loves, lovely, Lovable by all... SuAvY, cool, u are definately an ATTRACTION... u are really kind... u cares, u shares, u are a great motivation in life...
did i miss out any colours?

hey its u, zEnny , its U im talking about...